| Summary: | 碩士 === 靜宜大學 === 青少年兒童福利研究所 === 95 === A Story of Self-search—Walking Out of the Fairy Tale of Cinderalla
Abstract
My life story originates from abandoning myself to the imagination of Cinderalla, and I see my own growth and ability from the learning experience. Therefore, under the accumulation of confidence, I have the courage to pursue the meaning and value of life that I want. Hence, from the business workfield that helped me to break away from the poverty, to choosing the work of helping people in the social welfare field, I have experienced the course of life of self-integrated growth and transformation.
I find the energy of self-search through narrative and writing, and expect to make others imitate to write their own life stories, and find the meaning of life. I believe in this way, I can work longer on my job of helping people, and do not feel exhausted in the course of constant giving.
For me, the life experience of self- search is the incarnation of the value of existence, because of those vivid life stories intertwining with the society, the culture, and the family, such as: my mother’s tenacity of enduring all kinds of hardships like a superwoman at the lane, my real father’s background image, my step-father’s life of passing the times of turbulence and roving to Taiwan like dandelion, and my elder sister’s course of continuous adjustment of facing her son of Down syndrome and surviving the low tide of melancholy. They are the significant people in my life, as well as my jewels, for our lives are closed interwoven. However, I ignored them in the process of choosing to wear a mask, just like my neglecting the self-abased and ashamed inner child in my childhood that was situated in the poverty and dissatisfied with the reality.
Through narrative and writing, I found the gift of my life. In the process of changing the frame of vision, de-construction, and reconstruction, I learned to accept that both the abashed but true self in early days and my family are treasurable, and we all existed in a difficult environment. In the course of inter-subjectivity narrative that the family and I , I had more comprehension and recognition; the original tension, repression, anger, and rebellion disappeared, and I had a feeling of gratitude instead; it seems that I can maintain composure for the mood of regret, and it gave me the wisdom of practice, and the courage to accompany and support me. Through the peak experience, I have more empathy and respect on my job of helping people, and I can appreciate the living posture everyone chooses. I will continue playing a good role in my stage of life; it has nothing to do with wearing a mask or not, but pursues the true value of existence whether in true or falseness.
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