| Summary: | 碩士 === 國立臺灣藝術大學 === 應用媒體藝術研究所 === 94 === Title: My Dear Teacher
Genre: documentary
Film negative format: digital video
Time: 54minutes
This is a film in relation with my inner vagrant and stable searching. In the journey I found my birth mother and comprehended the stories between my grandparents and my parents. Toward the end of the filming, I also caught the stable inner strength of my heart.
Education revolution is an obvious issue which has been discussing these years. As a vagrant teacher I was thinking of filming some works related to this popular issue. However, what if I found a stable teaching job? Will my heart stop wandering? Confucius said “at thirty I stood firm” thus, I decided to film a documentary when I was thirty years old last year for memorizing this particular age of mine. 30 years old should be a matured and completed grown up age and should be able to observe my past time by different angles. I earned all my courage to find one thing by camera that I had no dare to do before: I wanted to know my own parents who gave me the blood and gene. I wanted to get to know the stories during their teaching life in schools such as what would be their students’ thought of them? How the old colleagues seeing of them? Why my mother left from me? Being such a young widow what was her ineffable difficulty to run away from her won infant baby? I, myself, a young 30 years old woman waved the impetuous life away and stepped into a more matured and stable stage I think I am able to view my mother’s leaving spaciously through the documentary filming journey.
It is never being a problem for me to use the camera, but I struggled a lot to dig the long last year confusion deep inside my heart. While I was filming I always embarrassed by the two different positions I should acted at the same time. I need to be rationally a cameraman while I was also the person who actually involved emotionally. Gone through the journey of finding my mother I stood behind the classroom platform I realized the connection between my own parents and myself. I was released after I understood all the past and this experience made me a strong woman to walk into the future sprightly.
In the esthetic of a film, I built the mood of the past by the theater presentation at the beginning and. During the scene of characters conversation and the process of the whole story, I used the black out to cut the different scenes in between. I tend to use the theater mythology to give the audience time and space to think and feel when they are watching this film. So I use the first person way to tell the story to lead the audience into the story.
After the premier, the audiences have so many different ideas and feedbacks about my family members; some of them admire my courage, some agree of my mother’s decision, also some people think my grandmother and aunt gave no limited love to me nobody can compare with.
I am delighted that this documentary arise various feedbacks.
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