Summary: | 碩士 === 台南科技大學 === 美術研究所 === 97 === The research of creation starts from myself, coming from my own life experiences, including sketching on the street, gazing at the people, receiving external information as well as hearing the intrinsic sound. The oppressed the time of growth, the frustration of feelings and the trouble of the relationships make me restless in the deep mind. The escape and self-block cause me to be lonely. The anger and depression deepen the gulf of the bitter. The experiences, combining the memories and feelings and forcing me to face my own intrinsic situation, always merge in my mind unintentionally. The creation becomes the only exit of my extremely restless condition. Through the way, I can dig out my heart which is closed in the dark black hole, reflecting my internal.
The topic of this research is “me”. My works are taken as the objects of observation through the literature methodology. The academic theories are the foundation of my creation, according to the aspects of the “existence”, “symbol”, “subconscious” and “performance”. The process of the thinking of creation is that analysis description, works research, experiences reading, experiences narration, the connotation clarification. Through analyzing the works, the intrinsic mind can be understood precisely.
My creations are divided into three series: “Gazing myself”, “Gazing the feelings of the family” and “Gazing the affections of lover”, attempting to shape my own image and to reflect my reality via my body, status and stories; meanwhile, presenting my desires without veiling and common viewpoints and weakening the characteristics of the feminine by the technique of shaping in order to free myself from the myth of the genders. Moreover, my own image and style can be constructed by discovering and communicating with myself continuously.
The creations reveal the self-intrinsic reflection, the restless condition and the sense of the loneliness and sadness which are the fundamental keys of my creations. The development of life experiences changes my mind; furthermore, the contradiction and the diversity fill the process of the creations. Although the repression and the restless condition have not vanished during the period of the creations, gazing myself clarified the sorrowful and vague inside condition; finally the self-existence would be realized after all.
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