| Summary: | 碩士 === 國立臺北教育大學 === 生命教育與健康促進研究所 === 101 === This research adopts a self-narration method in exploring a religious follower’s life story about her belief pursuing in different religion systems and the influences of these different religion systems on her. In the text, the researcher, I, re-examined the course of my belief pursuing with self- narration, and I saw how my values systems which developed from the belief pursuing affected the way I faced my life, and how they shaped who I was /am and my faith.
In the story, “devotion” was the first conviction in my belief pursuing, and it had been also the primary supporting strength for me to face the hard time of my life. However through re-examining in my self-narration, I saw the changing venations of my life, and I found it was my choices and actions that affected myself and my life, not my “devotion”. Then I started to be aware of my belief pursuing process, and I’m gradually becoming “awakening”.
When I explored my past processes in belief pursuing, I saw the past “ I ” has a no doubt thought that to believe is equal to adore the Holly Power, and expected the Holly Power to protect my everything. However, through the reflection and narration on the life path, and through the theoretical analysis and probe, I formed a different understanding and attitude about belief. Now I realize that although devotion is the pertinent element of belief, we still need to have the abilities of self reflection and mindfulness, so we can own the wisdom to face our life.
In the process of my belief pursuing, I converted three times, from Christianity to Buddhism, from the Pureland Buddhism to Zen Buddhism, from Chinese Buddhism to Tibetan Buddhism. In my converting experiences, I realized that religion actually can guide people to find the meaning of life and to fulfill the spiritual practice, but I’m the one who holds the right to make decisions and put the decisions into practice. Only through the process of making decisions and put the decisions into practice, I can own the wisdom to surmount the difficult position, and then I can find my own way in belief.
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