Revisiting wounds from my original family to re-encounter with myself

• Main Authors: HSU,CHIA-WEI, 許家瑋
• Other Authors: LEE,TAO-FENG
• Format: Others
• Language: zh-TW
• Published: 2018
• Online Access: http://ndltd.ncl.edu.tw/handle/ve8j7j

碩士 === 實踐大學 === 家庭研究與兒童發展學系家庭諮商與輔導碩士班 === 106 === In the present study, the researcher aimed to deepen self-awareness and self-understanding by recounting his personal growth from life experiences, thus achieving self-acceptance and healing. Starting from his stress responses upon thesis writing, the researcher found new methods for coping environmental adjustments and changes in relationships. Through his writing, he realized the mutual impacts between self-worth and one’s original family, prompting him to further investigate what his own family experiences inflicted on him. 　The researcher used self-narration based on the “reconstruction process” model described by Lai and Ting (2005). The model allows a narrator shifting between experiential self, text self and interpretive self. As the researcher wrote about his childhood, he renewed his connection with his inner emotions and understood how he formed his self-concepts. Resulting from his constant rationalization and interpretation, the researcher was initially unable to stay in touch with his inner experiences. However, as he tried to get in touch with his various inner aspects in the process, he was finally able to reconstruct his growth experiences and organize his inner transformation in writing. This study showed that the researcher had unmet expectations to his parents, which affected his interpersonal relationships and further generated his automated responses to unresolved inner emotions. The research process helped the researcher gain access to experiences of anger and loss, and consequently, reconnecting with his authenticity and vitality. By restructuring his view on his parents, opening up dialogues with one another, and improving his family relationships, the researcher also increased his sense of self worth and his ability of self-acceptance.